Today I woke up as usual.
After the morning rituals of washing my face and cleaning my teeth, I kept gazing at the window. It’s a new year. Another fresh morning. The snow was falling from the branch of a nearby tree. I kept gazing outside, at the whole spectacle; the sunrise appearing at 08:15hrs… hovering the sky with the wonderful pink and yellow colors, penetrating the clouds which split the greyish dusk with the morning lights.
Suddenly a thought came to me, as I was about to start my day.
What if today would be my last day in this world?
What if death is waiting for me on the other side of the sky, at sunset?
I confess, it’s a scary thought. More often than not, I prefer to avoid the topic of death in my mind and try to live as if I would be around forever. I like to plan my days, weeks, years ahead. I love the “to do” lists and the certainty of a long future.
But what if for once, I decide to face the fact that I will die, to value much more what I have today, instead of losing all my present time planning a tomorrow that I’m not sure it will come?
Steve Jobs, founder of Apple, confessed to have made himself the following question every morning for 33 years: “If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today? And when the answer has been No, for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something”.
January is normally the time of the year that I start to make resolutions for the year ahead. I use to plan meticulously all the goals I want to achieve. I put milestones and deadlines to each of my resolutions. I still believe this is valuable when you have a clear vision of what you want to achieve and those actions are followed truly by your heart. But how many of those valuable actions we really end up doing?
How many times we procrastinate what we really want to do, in favor of following someone else’s desires and benefits?
How much time you have lost in doing tedious and irrelevant things during the day… day after day, waiting for a “free time” when you will finally allow yourself to go on with living?
When faced with the truth of death… everything except Love, becomes irrelevant.
If this would be my last day on Earth… I would go straight away to kiss and hug my loved ones, telling them how much I love them. I would value every single minute of what is left of my life to enjoy them to the fullest. Hold them so tight it hurts.Forget all the nonsense egoistical thoughts and stupid misunderstandings.
I would go out to the free air, run through the forest… hug every single tree and say thousand times thank you, thank you… you have given me so much. I barely paid attention to you during my life except for this very moment.
I would run around and play in the snow, like a little child. Laugh all I can, with all my strength. Travel as far as I can to see the sunset at the sea.
I would disobey orders. I would wear off the ridiculous mask. I would hug everybody. I would render honor to our Creator, which I believe, made us perfect and divine. I would only live with the pure consciousness of following my heart and my values. I would not be afraid anymore. If the fear of death was the thing that hold me back from being who I am, what the heck does it matter now, that I’m about to die?
What a liberating feeling, to live as if you are about to die.
If I am going to die tonight, I don´t want to be locked down at a cave physical or mental, just waiting for my death to arrive. I want to be free!
“I would rather be ashes than dust! I would rather that my spark burn out in a brilliant blaze than it be stifled by dry rot. I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in magnificent glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet”- Jack London
I wish that you live everyday of this 2021, as if it would be your last!